Saturday 1 August 2009

The decision to share

Ok, I finding myself single - again - at the ripe old age of 52. I made a decision to go on-line, give fate a helping hand and start Internet dating. I'm going to share my colourful experiences in my search for a special person to share my life with bloggers on-line. I'd better start with a bit about me. I have had three long term relationships, clearly it's something I'm not very good at. The first to my husband (he's still my husband - we'll have been married 30 years next March, that's a story for another time). We were together for 10 years. He is 23 years older than me, and he left me, how insulting is that? The second was with a partner I was with for 15 years the split with him was initiated by me. Very soon after we parted (about 3 weeks) I got together with my most recent partner, although we never lived together, he stayed at my place about 5 or 6 nights a week. We decided to go our separate ways a couple of months ago and so here I am on the dating scene. Can you date at 52? Should there be another name for those of us of mature years seeking a new partner? Dating sound such a youthful activity. Especially for someone like me who has four kids and a granddaughter. Unfortunately I'm not really very good material for dating of any kind. I'm not unattractive and don't look bad for 52, I think it's fair to say that I look younger than my age. The problem is my body, it's what would be described on most websites at curvy. Well, actually that's a rather generous description, but would you tick overweight (which I clearly am) but how unattractive does that sound? After months at Weight Watchers I am now a UK size 16 - not really model material eh? And of course at 52, everything drops, well my everything drops anyway. No pert uplifted boobs on my body, they sort of hang and require a scaffold-like bra to keep in position. Then there's my tummy - ugh! Four children including a set of twins means my tummy looks a bit like a crumpled pancake - imagine letting the new man in my life, if there's ever going to be one see that! Well that's the introduction - next installment will be registering on line.